Disappointment..

As we are nearer to exam, I felt more stress. Stress not only due to the exam, but also the responsibility that we are going to bear in the future. Becoming a doctor is not an easy work. But, this has been what i am looking forward. I think a great responsiblity in handling patients is necessary or basic requirement in this career. Some how, this will become a great challenge for everyone in order to conduct a good practice.
2 years ago, the dean of faculty had told me how much UM medical students nowadays are lacking in their responsibility and I just ignore it. But, i started to understand what he said at this point of time. It has been quite sad when i look around and notice quite a number of students who always take things for granted and never volunteer to take up responsibilities.
Yesterday, an idiot had just push all her responsibility to me and ended up i was scolded for no reason because she didn't do her work properly. It is a norm in my group for pre-call student to be in-charge in blood taking for patients in that particular wards after the morning chart rounds. Any urgent blood will be taken by the post-call students. Who knows, this post-call idiot who didn't attend her call the day before and ended up rushing for her patient reviews before chart round did not take an urgent blood for that day. The doctor had asked her to do so and she just ignore it until 10 minutes later when the ward called me (pre-call) and i promise to rush in within 10 minutes. When i arrived, the "GREAT MO" scolded me straight away for something that i don't know.
With that, I throw my temper towards the idiot and she asked me: "Why do you scold me? You should scold another post-call student (who went to cover the whole ward the day before)." I am so shock!!! WOW.. how can she push all the things to others like that? She don't have any sense of responsibilities at all? Wonder how people can work in a team with her in the future.
Responsibility is not an uncommon issue in my badge. No one want to pick up responsibility to be a leader is so so so common. Even though everyone had agreed to do rotation and each one become leader for at least 1 posting, there are still peoples who always tried to sneak away from this responsibility. Even if you had pointed them out, they will still give tonnes of nonsense reasons or manipulate others so that he/she can sneaked away. Most important is in the end of the days, most of them makes the most comments regarding how BAD the leader was.
I really hope that no one will carry this attitude further in their career. Not only in medical profession, but others as well. We are adult enough to make wise decision and I am sure we are adult enought to carry the responsibility that we should have.

A new START for A new YEAR

Every one like that say: It is a new year, let's hope for a better year. Well, I would say that this is a very optimistic way of thinking and it is really good. We must always live with hope, rite? If not, will be ended up as HOPELESS person. Haha!
2009, a brand new year, with a brand new hope and lots of plans, and some on-going changes in my life. First, have to finish my MBBS exam and graduate as a doctor. Then, have to live time to fullness. Appreciate every moment that i can spend with my family and friends. And also hope that I can try to do something for the benefits of Teluk Intan community or the community within my service hospital. Of course, I really hope that I can become active in PBHB and Tang Soo Do again.
Anyway, the most important things that I wish for, is WORLD PEACE!!! It is such a painful feelings to see the changes in the world. It is painful to see the War, Terroristism, Criminals, Environment Pollutions. How many years left we can keep on hoping if there is no WORLD?
A new Year of 2009. I wish it could be a new START of every one in the world. Happy New Year, My Friends!!!

Police + Horses

Went to section 17 this morning. Suddenly saw 2 policemen riding horses and patrol in that housing area. felt so suprise and snapped this photo. Geik Kuan said don't know whether they can chase motorbike or motorbike chase them. Bear in mind that those policemen are not that well trained for riding a horse oh.. haha!

In Malaysia, we hardly see horses except when we go to Zoo. But now, heard that the government might want policemen to use it for patrolling. Can it works? If really going to start, those policemen with BMI more than 30.. can they ride those horses? poor little horses....

Police Academy..

Was spending my weekend on these movies.. POLICE ACADEMY.. not sure whether you guys still remember or watch these movies before. But seriously, I like these movies a lot when i was young. However, when i watch these movies again, felt so funny but kind of lost the feelings as when i was young that time. Anyway, it is still a nice movies which you might have forgotten after such a long time away from our childhood..

Just a thought of what is relationship..

I think Psychiatric posting did help me in understanding the act of an human. This posting do allow me to understand myself. What personality am I and what is the problem with my own personality. Same to the people around me. I started to understand that sometimes people do act "wierd" and it is actually due to their personality. Nothing can be blamed. There were a lot of doctors who said.. the way you act actually implicating how you were brought up by your parents. If your parents are drug addicts, then you might be ended up with the same problem as well.

Something make me felt sad yesterday. There is a psychiatry patient who told me that their family members ask him to move away from the family. I am not sure whether he is telling the truth or not, but i am sure that this is a sad story that I can never imagine. He was a breadwinner of a family. Now, he is mentally sick and the family member ask him to move away. I ask him.. Why? How could you give up like that? He just answer me that He also afraid he will be out of control and hurt them. It is better for both parties if stay separately for few hundreds KM away. Just curious whether who will do this to the family members?

What does a family mean? For me, it is a safe place where we can live as our own self without worries. Unfortunately, different people have different perceptions towards FAMILY. I received an email before and it is quite interesting as it said that FAMILY is stand for Father And Mother, I Love You. Of course, I do understand the situation of his family members and I am not blaming anyone because of that. But I do think that the world can be better with a bit more cares and loves...

Caning..

Caning. Do you agree with the act of caning? I think most of the people from our age group will still agreed with caning. Even I myself also agreed with it as I think this is a good way to discipline a child. Agree? People like me will give explaination that we were raised like that and you see.. we are still alive and stay in a very good condition and some of us may even achieve a succeful life.

The condition had been changed from time to time. Parents in the 80's and 90's will still can their child in order to discipline their children. But, as the development of human's right and child's right.. people start stigmatising caning as some of them may see it as a matter of violence.

I was having a tutorial sessions with a Child Psychiatrist this morning and she asked how many of us actually agreed with caning. Immediately, I raised my hand as high as possible as I think that caning with reasonable reason is good in discipline a child. What do you think? agreed? But what the Doctor said was true. When we can, we do leave some impact towards the child. Indirectly tell them that we are allowed to can other people. Your children will react like you as they learn mostly from parents.

There is always a better way to discipline a child. Can always use the award method. For example, star system. whenever they behave good for a day, give them a star. when they get enough star, award them with something beneficial. Do not awards with something material as they will become greedy in future. For eg: Can take them for a picnic, making cake together (strengthen the bond between parents and child). If they behave badly, take off a star which they earn with efforts.

I do think that the above method mentioned is quite useful. Probably caning is no longer a useful way of discipline a child. We are moving in 21st century d.. Probably things does change and we also need to change.. what was taught might not be always correct. With realization of problem existed, then only we can progress into a better condition..

Psychiatry

Just posted in the psychiatric posting for 1week. It is a scary but interesting posting. We call psychiatry as a mental illness which means the patient is sick mentally. However, normal people would like to label them as crazy...

Before i enter this posting, I was having the exactly same thought as psychiatric patient are crazy, loss of connection with normal people and some of them may become violent as well. It was quite a shock when i notice that most of them are actually really smart. They know very well with their own problem and sometimes they can even challenge you with their thoughts.. of course, don't ever challenge them back as you might provoke them..

From there, I was told that psychiatric patient wouldn't hurt other people except someone they know.. friends, family members.. That's why I built up my confidence and go to interview thems. Sometimes, will find that what they said were pretty true.. luckily I was warned by a senior buddy not to think too much regarding what they said.. if not i will ended up like them also.. haha!!!

There was once in the ward when i was attacked by 4 of them together.. huh.. so scary..!! once of them caught me and ask about Pethidine (pain killer - opiods type). The other came forward and listen and interrupt by asking me to do researches.. then, the 3rd one came over and introduce herself to me and keep on talking non-stop regarding her conditions and her hobbies. There come the 4th person, asking me about Patients' Rights.. huh..

Schizophrenia patient have hallucination. Imagine how scary it is if they tell you that they see someone behind you.. hohoho.. Scary, right??? hehe.. but overall, i do feel pity on their conditions. This is not what they want. They also wish to be a normal person but there is some problem with their brain which make them into a "CRAZY" person.

Mental illness become more and more common nowadays which can be due to the stressful life events nowadays. We shouldn't stigmatized those people. If we are to diagnosed ourselves, I think most of us (esp medical students) have some mental problems which might progress to Psychiatry illness anytime..